Hey Everyone,

As the year draws to a close, I don’t know why but I guess it’s looking back at the year that makes me super reflective at the moment. I’m thinking about all the lessons I’ve learnt this year and I want to pen them down before it’s just a faded memory. One of the the things I was battling with this year with the idea of inadequacy – not being good enough – whether it’s feeling not good enough for your partners, your friends and for me, obviously well my work. But who says, you’re not good enough. The only person who has authority over that well is you.

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Hey Everyone,

I want to let you know that when you walk into a fearful situation, you are not walking as one, but as much more. You are walking in with all the experiences you’ve ever experienced, all the people you’ve ever met, all the hard work and effort you’ve ever put into something. You are walking in as that and so much more.

Life is going to give you opportunities that are going to require you to step out of that comfort zone as it has for me. At times these decisions are so hard and at times sometimes I ask myself why, why do I do this to myself? But I realise that at the end of the day, it’s about how much you want to grow, how much you want to turn the chapter to see what’s next. At times the unknown is going to be freakin scary, or something crazy. I’ve been called crazy all the time and times I call myself crazy but you know what? If I don’t do it, then I’ll be at square one to the day I die and that is something even scarier than the unknown. Well, for me at least.

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Hey Everyone,

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I feel like it’s been a while since I connected with you on a more personal level, sharing my feelings and thoughts. Today, I thought I’d just spill my thoughts everywhere, see where this goes and give you basically a general update of how I feel about life right now. Ever since I launched Bloom’s new location and Revolution in August, it’s been well let’s say a whole nother journey for me. It really feels like I’ve opened up a new chapter of my life and I’ve just started.

I think there are good sides and bad sides to every job. A lot of people tell me that I’m living my dream and that I am what every person wants to become. I feel like that’s a lot of pressure to take. I think that the grass is always greener on the other side. Yes, I am doing what I want to do but although I try to keep a strong front, there are times when you’re wondering what on earth are you doing. It feels like you’ve taken off and have started flying but there are times when you stop and look down and kinda shock yourself at how high you’ve flown. Sometimes I ask myself why I’ve done this to myself – after all, getting a 9 to 5 job is so much easier. I would finally have weekends, a steady salary, can finally plan financially and the movement of my company wouldn’t depend soley on well…me. It feels like there are eyes everywhere, eyes that yes want you to succeed and other eyes that can’t wait for you to fail – the constant pressure of having to look and be successful. It’s Painful. But in all this, I’ve really begun to discover a few things that I keep telling myself over and over again and I really hope it helps you too.

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Hey Everyone,

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Life teaches you different things in stages and I’ve found that often, they’re a sum of our experiences and struggles. For me, I’ve been realising two things lately – what both “constant” and thinking positive really means.

I know it’s silly but I live alone and for the longest time I was scared of the dark. It’s a rather large house and my parents now live overseas. At times I would feel super scared and I would immediately hide under the covers after getting ready for bed, jumping at every single sound. But at other times, I felt totally safe – and the house was just an inatimate object I lived in. This fear was pretty annoying because sometimes I would have it, and sometimes I would not. And it clicked to me one day at the idea of constant. The house is actually constantly just a house, an inatimate object – not scary, just void of feelings or actual life. Yet, it’s my own perspetives and fear that almost bring it to life. It’s like a puppy that doesn’t know what you’re thinking but you are the one who either thinks of the puppy as evil or good but the puppy is just sitting there with wide eyes wondering what you’re thinking when all along you are the one determining your own fear. The house will always be constant, always but it’s my perspectives that change. In that way, I realise that fear could be just something that I have created, almost totally from my own silly little head for things that don’t even deserve that fear.

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Hey Everyone :)

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I saw this tag floating around and I wanted to do a video but then it’s night and late and I thought I’d write it down instead. If you don’t know what this tag is about, it’s basically a letter to your younger self. I’m going to write to myself when I was a senior in High School. I shall include some pics from school too if you want to see how I used to look like!  So, here we go :)

Dear Me,

Life gets better, but it doesn’t get easier. You will be blessed beyond what you could have ever, ever imagined or even expected – but with that comes great responsibility. You will have challenges, you will fight demons inside you but you must understand that whatever battles you fight, it will not only help you, it will have the ability to help everyone around you. Show the battle scars for it’s the scars that will inspire and encourage others to keep fighting.

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Hey Everyone!

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Hello 2015! I just realised that this will be my first blog post of 2015. Woot! Today I thought I would try and do the classic smokey eyes and nude lips look. All celebs are sporting it on the red carpet and it’s just one of those never out of fashion styles. Personally, I never wear nude lips out. I always think I look half dead so this was for sure something that made me a little uncomfortable. You’re also probably used to seeing me in bright reds and fuchsias so I thought this would be a great change (not to mention experimental progress for me!). My chosen weapon of choice is Brigitte cosmetics.

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