It’s been a while since I’ve written a Tangspiration post. I guess it’s because I only write one of these when I get inspired to. I was sitting on the couch eating my lunch today when I started to reflect on what I’ve done in life (funny what a bowl of fried rice can do) and it came to me, “Man, I had NO idea.” I had no idea that I’d be blogging and youtubing and collaborating with major companies and agencies. I had no idea that one day I would welcome Christ into my life and just have such an awesome relationship with God knowing that I’ve been brought up differently. I had no idea that I’d be in a relationship even. I remember only a few months ago saying that I’d probably never get married (I know, issues much?). I had no idea that I’d even be in make-up, much less get into fashion jewelry and now in the midst of opening my own online store. Growing up, I’ve been trained to feel like I should be a doctor or a lawyer or a successful CEO and never have I even imagined that I wouldn’t even care about any of that, now. I guess the point is in reflecting that “I had no idea”, I see really how awesome life can be because you really have no idea what’s next.
I think part of the beauty in life is how unexpected things can be. I was really the nerd in High School. All I cared about was my grades, all I cared about was things that I don’t care about now. And I think a lesson to learn from that is that sometimes the things that you care so much about right now, won’t really matter in a few years. As we grow as people, we change and hopefully for the better and we change what we like, what we enjoy doing and grow into who we were made to be. Sometimes slowy, but surely. I think that’s also why when we listen to the superficiality of the world as they call it, and go into something that we weren’t meant to do like become a banker when we really like painting, we are unsatisfied and unhappy. No matter how many mountains of cash you can make, we feel empty because we do not fulfill a much deeper purpose and from my perspective, God-given.
I wonder when again I will be telling myself “I had no idea” . I wonder what it might be. Perhaps I’ll be in another country and telling myself “I had no idea” or staring something else that “I had no idea” about. For me, I trust God to lead me and use me for whatever He wants me to do. But if you can’t relate, I still believe that just like me, you have no idea what you might be into in a couple of years. All we can do is anticipate in excitement and perhaps stumble upon the fore-shadowing of hopefully something great. What did you have no idea about?